Over the last few days I’ve been catching glimpses of myself in the mirror and to say unappealing and disappointing is putting it mildly.  Is this the moment that the change happens  – no, not that change – the mindset change.  

I saw a reel on Insta and it was Joanne Donnelly and she mentioned something about doing a 28 day walking challenge – so I think that is what I’m going to do.  Now anybody in their right mind would start straight away and by postponing it they are only doomed to failure etc.  But my mind doesn’t work like that – my mind has immediately hit upon the fact that tomorrow is February 1st and that is 28days long.  So that is the plan – I have to leave the apartment and go for a walk every day for the month.  if I’m lucky it’ll continue to happen – or my natural laziness will reassert itself and I’ll revert to my natural state of a hermit couch potato.  In the mean time I’m going to have to start on the calorie counting.  I just want to reduce the wobble a bit.  

I think I should address the opening statement a little bit – the unappealing – I don’t find it appealing – I’m not worried about anybody else – nobody else is going to see it – it’s just for me – the combination of disappointing is – that’s not the way I look, that’s not how I’m supposed to be.  Now in fairness I’m not a million miles away from it and it just takes a bit of effort to get back there.  That’s where the problem lies – effort – the constant fight of don’t wanna do it, don’t wanna look like this – so there’s the choice.  The small starting step is the walk everyday in february, with the calorie counting.  Whether anything else gets added into the mix a little later is something that can be addressed when the time comes – but I have to say, walking has always served me well – once i actually do it.  In fairness the walking is for fitness – it’s not going to tone me – but also it will do me good to get out – blow away the cobwebs.  Although if I remember correctly I used to walk at lunchtime during covid simply to keep myself out of the kitchen so in that respect it helps with the calorie counting.

So the question is – how long will it be, before I don’t go for the walk???